We look for ways to serve others to show God’s goodness, but somehow the way forward does not seem clear. This has been true in my own home where my wife has wanted to spend more on a new house than I have. Finances are often a source of conflict between a husband and a wife. I sincerely wanted guidance on how I should proceed in the selling of our house and the purchase of a new one. Our house has, in our opinion, become under-priced and we thought no-one would buy it and so we thought God had plans for us when a buyer finally came through. We, therefore, felt justified making an offer on a house in Chicago.
However, between Kelli and me there has been conflict. We don’t see have the same opinion on finances. I have tried to adjust my stance regularly, but I have wondered if I was just becoming more foolish. The words of God to Adam were ringing in my head, “Because you listened to your wife and ate of the tree of which I told you, ‘do not eat,'” and also the story of Samson listening to Delilah to his ruin. This was contrasted with committing my way to God and he would make straight my path.
The last couple of days I have been reading Romans 14 and 15 about how Jesus is the example of emptying himself to reach others. Jesus came in humility and although I have been confused about the limits of self-sacrifice I have sincerely looked to serve.
It is at that point that the seller in Chicago cancelled our contract because they were offered a better contract by someone other than us. Within 24 hours the buyer of our house in McHenry cancelled their contract without explanation. So, in one sense the conflict is resolved. We have the hope of knowing that it is God who is working his will in these circumstances, so although we are sad, we are not crushed. In one sense the conflict is resolved.
However, now a new conflict arises. How do we solve the issue of homeschooling our son because of his special needs? When the fall semester starts we will both once more have a two-hour commute. Kelli’s solution is to get up at 3:30 a.m. each morning. On the horizon is another conflict. However, for now, we have sought the Lord as to what he would want in this situation and we have found that he has removed the disagreement by allowing both contracts to fall through. At this moment I can sit in the house that I love and enjoy the summer. I can let go of tomorrow’s worries because the God who is with us today will be present tomorrow. Then the God of hope will fill me with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit I may abound in hope
For I tell you that Christ became a servant to the circumcised to show God’s truthfulness, in order to confirm the promises given to the patriarchs, 9 and in order that the Gentiles might glorify God for his mercy. As it is written,
“Therefore I will praise you among the Gentiles,
and sing to your name.”
10 And again it is said,
“Rejoice, O Gentiles, with his people.”
11 And again,
“Praise the Lord, all you Gentiles,
and let all the peoples extol him.”
12 And again Isaiah says,
“The root of Jesse will come,
even he who arises to rule the Gentiles;
in him will the Gentiles hope.”
13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.