35 Jesus heard that they had cast him out, and having found him he said, “Do you believe in the Son of Man?” 36 He answered, “And who is he, sir, that I may believe in him?” 37 Jesus said to him, “You have seen him, and it is he who is speaking to you.” 38 He said, “Lord, I believe”, and he worshipped him. 39 Jesus said, “For judgement I came into this world, that those who do not see may see, and those who see may become blind.” 40 Some of the Pharisees near him heard these things, and said to him, “Are we also blind?” 41 Jesus said to them, “If you were blind, you would have no guilt; but now that you say, ‘We see’, your guilt remains.
I have had problems seeing. About a month ago when I came off caffeine I had a series of ocular migraines or migraines with aura. From the left side of my vision to my right would become indistinct and wavy. It was off-putting that I couldn’t trust my eyes. I wondered what it would like to be blind. I was scared that I didn’t have the power to see reality as it truly is.
My father was domineering and opinionated. He needed to be in control to feel safe and so he wrested control of situations within the family with an iron fist. I have grown up with a skepticism about my own ability to define reality because if my father thought I was wrong there was no room for debate. A strength that grew out of this is that I entertain plurality. Not that all things are right at the same time, but without certainty on an issue many possibilities exist that could answer a difficult questions. I am quick to suggest possible answers, but I become a scared child if I have to define reality and stand by my definition.
Fortunately Jesus saw things with 20/20 vision. He had the perspective of the Father and he knew that his Father, unlike mine, was indeed right about everything. Jesus gives confidence to people like me who know their own limitations. He gives sight to the blind. This is not just the literal blind but the figurative also. When I trust Jesus to define reality I see that his truth is proved in action. This was the experience of the blind man who trusted Jesus when he received his sight. The question is for you, who do you rely on to define reality?
Jesus, I don’t view myself as a confident person, but I am confident in you. I trust the scriptures. However, I need to be less filled with fear when people have fixed views with which I don’t agree. Help me work my way away from the patterns of my childhood. Help me to jettison all fear and to be secure in your love.
- For whom does Jesus look?
- What does he ask?
- Why does John tell us the story about the blind man?
- Who do you really trust on a day-to-day basis to define reality?
- How can you live life with appropriate freedom and confidence?